sorry you have to hear this again ashley

so this morning, zachary was late to drumline practice. when i asked him why, he told me this story.

"oh yeah, im not very good at doing things on time. so i woke up and took a shower, put on some plaid shorts and tripped and fell over in my bedroom. i took like a thirty minute nap on my floor. it was actually pretty nice."

i dont think ive made any posts about this kid yet. idk how to describe him other than ugh. i have the biggest crush ive ever had on anyone in my life. i don't even think thats an exaggeration. the crazy thing is though, i also kinda have a crush on his brother, which is dumb but unfortunately true. they're almost the same person really. its just that zach is my age and doesn't have add.

im pretty sure he likes me too. i catch him looking at me constantly, and he didn't deny it when my friend accused him of being in love with me today, haha. idk, you never know for sure. his mom works with my mom and she's told her stories about how last year apparently girls never left him alone, so im trying to take things slow and develop a good friendship before rushing into a relationship or something without forming some kind of bond to fall back on. because i hate awkwardness. [who doesn't?]

so im going to stop now, before i get carried away.

i wish i didn't talk/think about this kid so much.

no trucks beyond atwood avenue

my teeth dont really feel much better today.
but thats okay because im used to it now.

today we went shopping,
even though i didn't get up until like one o'clock, haha.
i didn't really get anything exciting other than hit the lights' album.
i like it a lot. =]

but im pretty upset about my tai shirt.
i bought a small, slim fit even, and it is absolutely huge.
usually i buy shirts too big for me and get dissapointed about it,
but this one is actually the right size, it must be cut wrong or something.
idk, i haven't washed it yet, maybe it will shrink.
my mom can always take it in, she's a good sewer.
while she's at it, i'll probably have her do my ftsk shirt and backseat goodbye shirt as well.

i had a dream last night about school.
it wasn't in the school that im actually going to, and i got horribly lost.
but the boys from panic at the disco came to my rescue, haha.
no one knew who they were, and they thought they were all big nerds
so i was the only kid sitting by them at lunch.
it was a little awkward, but not bad. =]

id really like some jones soda.
i think we're about to go to the grocery store so
maybe i'll pick some up.

[editt; haha! i ended up getting jones soda in cans because i need something to drink at school next week. plus its such a good deal. =] also i think the title for this entry would make a good song title, or maybe beyond atwood or beyond atwood avenue would be a good name for a band. just a thought]

never learn, never knew

yeah i just made a post, but i have a lot more to say,
and i am going to say it.

all of a sudden i rediscovered my intense love for that great band patent pending.
go listen to them please because they are pretty great.

we decided that since its the last weekend of summer that we were going to be spontaneous and travel wherever we want, whenever we want. i like this idea. we took a two point five hour trip to the wisconsin dells today to go to an outlet mall that was kinda dumb and we ended up seeing hamlet two at the amazing theater they have up there. i liked that movie a lot, haha, it was great. my mom didnt understand it/didn't like it because it talked about gay people, the way she feels about every movie except chick flicks. my dad couldn't decided if he liked it or not because he thought it was kinda dumb and not well made but he laughed a lot and i liked it and that automatically means he has to like it. so, whatever. i thought it was good.

to get back on the topic of writing again, because i wasn't finished, on the way up i started a story based off the amazing movie i watched recently called some like it hot. its black & white, from the late fifties and has been called the funniest movie ever made. haha. i wrote the title of my story and couldn't start it, so i moved on to another one based on something that actually happened to me at my county fair. its kind of cute but not very funny. i think i wrote ten lines, maybe and moved on to a cute little lyric thing ive been thinking about for the past few days about seatbelts. then i saw a hot air balloon and a cute guy in the car next to me and stopped writing because i couldn't concentrate any more.

i think i have such a problem writing stories because apparently i have a really short attention span all of a sudden. i write anonymous letters about all my secrets all the time on this 'dear you' community on livejournal and i enjoy it. i can concentrate and finish a letter because i usually write them like this:
in lines
that are usually
three to ten words long.

like that book 'sharp teeth'
that was written in
freeverse poetry.

it was a good book
and it inspired me a little.
but thats not the reason
i write like that.

it just makes sense to me.

so, maybe school will bring me back to earth. maybe having to write papers and essays again will retrain me to write in full sentences and complete thoughts. that might be a good thing.
ill post whatever else comes to mind on my livejournal so i can put it under a cut and it wont take up as much space.

for ashley

so my schedule for this year is:

first- french II, behn
second- physical education, moen [2nd semester is health with lee]
third- western civilization, conway
fourth- geometry, idk who the teacher is, it was a misprint...
fifth- physical science honors, olson
sixth- concert band, my dad lmao
seventh- accelerated english 9-10 honors, coats
eighth- advisory, bouska

so i guess that's all there is for that.
band camp is really hard tbh.
for three hours a day, all week.
its so fucking sweaty like you couldn't believe in that room
and im sitting by all these older guys who are totally nice and funny and everything
they're kinda intimidating, but its okay because im kinda used to it.
and i think ill have permanent scars on the insides of my lips
from my braces. its a lot of pain. =/

chi-town

so yesterday i went to chicago with ashley, lauren and morgan.
i lost my first staring contest with a guy on a bus, but it was okay because he gave me a thumbs up. a lot of things at the aquarium scared me, but that was okay too because i like aquariums a lot. navy pier was a little boring and the walk we took was like ten million miles long but that was also okay because we had a whole lot of fun on the spinning chair thing and i bought some great lemonade. the water taxi we took was amazing. i didn't know how much i liked boats, but now i do. =] we laughed a lot, which made it a good day.

its hard to describe how intensely i want to live in a big city like that. well, more like i wish i was raised in a big city like that, so i knew how it all worked and stuff, you know? i mean, i don't live in a tiny town or anything, but i used to, and its not like where i live now is the biggest city on the map either. idk, i just like big-city life and i wish i had all the opportunities and different situations that a place like chicago provides.

and idk what's wrong with me, but i feel pretty angsty lately. like there's something huge missing from my life and no matter what i try to fill it with, its only temporary. i guess it's a good thing school is starting soon so i can have things to think about other than how empty everything feels. =/

things

so i saw mamma mia today w/my mom. i liked it. thought it was really fun and funny. my mom cried a whole lot. said it was the 'mother and daughter thing' and that i would never realize how much i meant to her. i 'aww'ed a lot and she cried some more and it was pretty nice. <3>

in other news, I MUST HAVE THESE. THEY ARE THE SHIT. NO LIE. also the glamour kills shake shimmy etc. shirt and an 'alive' shirt from twloha. and also EVERYTHING by goodie two sleeves. haha they are the coolest. idk though because we're not really credit card people but we've been charging more lately and my mom wants to stop that so there probably wont be many internet purchases for a while. i'll just have to go to zumiez and hot topic etc and make due. w/e. school's coming up so now's the time to get new things while she's more lenient.

gross

friday and friday night i really felt like shit. =[ fever, achey, cough etc. carried over to saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, today, and probably until the end of the week. it was pretty much the flu without the stomach problems. i went to the doctor on monday, which was a bad idea i guess, because he was a complete dumbass who didn't know what he was talking about. i mean, he was nice, and he knew what he was doing, but all he said was that it might be mono and i'll probably have it until the end of the week. if it doesn't get better by then, i'm supposed to go back and they'll test me for mono and strep throat.
today it's gotten much better, i've been coughing like crazy, but other than that i have no symptoms. i'm hoping it will be better soon because i rarely ever get sick and it sucks times a lot.

health class

so i'm in health right now. we just finished writing our test about sex. it is the best test about sex that anyone will ever take...ever.
ashley's making a robot. alex is giving her hugs. mitchell is retarded.
oh dang i guess it's time for lunch.

tomorrow = concert. =]