too bright to see to loud to hear

these past couple weeks have been pretty sweet. i dont want to talk about it too much because i dont want to jinx it or anything. but things are just pretty good. ive been crazy busy. 

i got into the spring play. its the matchmaker, like the non musical version of hello dolly. im not going to lie, its kind of lame honestly. its kinda fun, and totally worth it to be working on my drama letter, and ive made some more friends, plus my acting skills have gotten better already, but god its so boring! like the cast is really pretty small, and im only in a couple scenes of the first act. but i dont wanna complain, at least i got in, you know? romeo and juliet starts like the week right after the matchmaker gets over, and i might try out for that too, just so i can be in as many things as possible. its all good.

saw slumdog millionare friday with my girl. its amazing! an absolutely wonderful movie, i couldnt believe it. just great. =]

i hate playing the trumpet. enough said. its just not my thing. but i dont care, i like being in band, plus my dad's the director so ill stay with it. id like to try choir for once though =/

tonight was really weird. like, in a good way, haha, but it was just weird. i had three guys [none of which being aaron, ashley] talk sex with me, which was a realllly weird thing, especially since one of them was gay hahhaaa. but i haven't been able to stop smiling for quite a while, and its nice to be called babe again, by someone whose last name does not rhyme with reicher. i want to put this all behind me and start all over with a clean slate as far as boys go. there are so many of them! and theyre all so fun to flirt with! haha id kind of like a boyfriend, but its nice not being tied down. =]

ummm there's lots of other things for me to say, but im tired and its bedime, nighty night

i want the whole meal not just the side dish

damn. facebook is really addicting. i got one like friday and i haven't been able to stay away.

it snowed really nicely today, and everyone's like 'aah i hope they close school tomorrow' but i know they won't because we were just off for thanksgiving and the snow isn't even that bad.

im doing this run/walk thing on saturday with student leadership council and it just so happened to be on the same day my family was going with some other people to get our church christmas tree. this really sucks because i was going to ask zach if he wanted to come with and we could be all cold and have to snuggle together to get warm ;] but now i can't because of this dumb run =[ plus taylor's going to be running with stewart and his dog so i won't be able to hang out with her and holly didn't get her form in on time so she might not even be there. if im lucky zachs brother aaron [whos like my big brother too] or marcus will be there. idk, we'll see what happens

sorry you have to hear this again ashley

so this morning, zachary was late to drumline practice. when i asked him why, he told me this story.

"oh yeah, im not very good at doing things on time. so i woke up and took a shower, put on some plaid shorts and tripped and fell over in my bedroom. i took like a thirty minute nap on my floor. it was actually pretty nice."

i dont think ive made any posts about this kid yet. idk how to describe him other than ugh. i have the biggest crush ive ever had on anyone in my life. i don't even think thats an exaggeration. the crazy thing is though, i also kinda have a crush on his brother, which is dumb but unfortunately true. they're almost the same person really. its just that zach is my age and doesn't have add.

im pretty sure he likes me too. i catch him looking at me constantly, and he didn't deny it when my friend accused him of being in love with me today, haha. idk, you never know for sure. his mom works with my mom and she's told her stories about how last year apparently girls never left him alone, so im trying to take things slow and develop a good friendship before rushing into a relationship or something without forming some kind of bond to fall back on. because i hate awkwardness. [who doesn't?]

so im going to stop now, before i get carried away.

i wish i didn't talk/think about this kid so much.