california sunshine, tennessee rain

so, sunday was my birthday.

im fifteen. =]

and, im going to kinda copy chad sugg.

by making 15 resolutions for the next year.

1. kiss that dumb boy.

2. play a lot more piano.

3. finish learning how to play the guitar.

4. try out for next year's musical!

5. join a few more clubs [human relations, science club, maybe vic tutoring]

6. god, please finish writing a story.

7. buy a new belt. don't stop wearing the old one, just get a new one.

8. take a fucking art class.

9. go to warped tour.

10. become passionate about something.

11. lighten up about some things

12. and get serious about others.

13. get a facebook. maybe.

14. never talk to lonnie again.

15. write a song [more than just a melody and some lyrics. a song.]

okay so for my birthday i got a laptop, and my dad used his educator status to get a free ipod touch. so :D im pretty excited. also today i bought a shirt off the internet and we finally ordered the concert tickets!! aah cobra starship, forever the sickest kids, hit the lights and sing it loud! its crazy how excited i am.

so i guess that's it. i've had a whole lot of homework so i haven't been on much, but im trying. =]

safely from the city

so at band camp last year they somehow got this cool little band called locksley to play for us marching band nerds. i really enjoyed the show and was super upset because that was the one day i forgot to bring my camera. i think i filled up a whole notebook page with 'fuck fuck fuck i forgot my camera'. they're a nice group of guys.
apparently locksley is mtv's band of the week or w/e. i've seen one of their videos on mtvu like a million times this week and it makes me pretty happy to see them go from playing at university of madison summer music clinic to mtv. even if they're not top sellers or anything, they've come so far in little over a year. =]

uh, i thought i had more to say in this entry, i really did. but i forgot, i guess. i could write about how fun the football game on saturday was, or how much i did not enjoy the vma's, but i don't have the energy for it right now.

we're gonna have us a champagne jam

so i think im going to lose my mind about this fucking cobra/ftsk and friends tour. my dad's being all ~noncomittal about it, and idk if ashley's mom can take us and i have zero friends who can drive to milwaukee [and who my parents would trust. ahaha i bet aaron eicher would take me if i asked nicely!] ugh, i wish justin lived close enough to take us. because one, he would totally take us, and two, his town only has a walmart and i think he really needs to get out of there if he wants to go anywhere with his music. im just really hoping that all this holdup won't be for much longer and i'll get tickets because im so scared that it'll sell out! aah!!
allie asked me if i wanted to go see metro station with her in november, and omg i would love that so much, but idk, i still really want to see all time low and the academy is and my parents are really against concerts, especially in milwaukee and chicago of course. plus idk if allie still smokes and i hope she knows im not into that kind of thing.

i shouldn't be freaking out about this kind of thing, but i don't want to miss out on all the fun while im still a kid. i mean, ive heard so much from older people that 'high school was the best time of my life', 'man i wish i was that young again, i got into so much shit' etc, and i want to take advantage of this as much as i can. i know how fast the time passes, and if i can't slow it down i guess i've got to just buckle up for the ride, you know?

which brings me to the topic of how much i am enjoying school, now that it's started again. i'm already lacking on sleep, and no matter how much breakfast i eat, im deathly hungry by second hour and its incredibly hard to find a place to sit at lunch and im a little scared about all the work this is going to be, and im kinda caught in this crazy predicament of who i want to pursue to date [omg this is an interesting story that i don't plan on telling, sorry, maybe some other time] but i've managed to have so much fun already in the first three days of school that i cant even describe it. it's scary but really great.

also; chiodos makes me smile. so does sky eats airplane. a lot.

today is saturday

so i bought fast times at barrington high today, finally. i agree with everyone who says its more like almost here than santi, but i dont really think you should think of it like that. i really loved santi, but almost here is great too, and now so is ftabh. they're all different and good no matter how you compare them to each other. im just mad at william for having the guy version of my hairstyle. his is shorter and obviously brown but its still unfair.

but the point of this entry is, i am very excited about something. i went to hot topic today [and ended up buying two shirts because they were on sale] to look for an album. this album is called dressed up like dreams, by this kid chad sugg, aka backseat goodbye. i am very very proud of him. =] chad is this amazing musician who has worked his ass off and not been accepted by a lot of kids in the scene [you may have seen him in ap a few months ago if you read it]. he's released six albums and multiple ep's by himself, and just recently has turned it into an enterprise and released a book called monsters under your head and is probably the most amazing person on earth. chad signed a distribution contract not too long ago and now his album is being sold in hot topic stores all over the country. i went there today for the sole purpose of holding his sixth album in my hands for the first time in a retail store. i did, and aah it was so great! =]
also, if this kid was ten years younger, he'd probably be my soulmate lmao. we are so much alike its crazy. =/ apparently he hasn't had a girlfriend in ten thousand years, but i really hope he meets someone nice who doesn't take advantage of his sensitivity.

idk if im glad about band camp being over tbh. it was really hard playing the trumpet for three hours straight every day, but i met the coolest people in the world. my dad's the director [aah] but it was okay because all the senior guys seemed to think i was cool for it and talked to me a lot. we talked about how much we go to the grocery store and what flavors of vitamin water we like and how my dad should shave his mustache and how i dont do anything and how flip flops are the best way to kill flies. nate was on crutches for the fifth time in the past three years, and i asked him to make me a sandwich and he did, but i ended up giving it to mitchell because it had butter on it and i thought it was gross. overall, it was a lot of fun. i also have mixed feelings about band day, the day where a bunch of high school bands play at the college football game because its going to be all day long and none of my good friends are going. so idk, we'll see what happens.

i guess that's it. i am very excited for ashley to come over next week because i haven't seen her face in a while and i would like to.

for ashley

so my schedule for this year is:

first- french II, behn
second- physical education, moen [2nd semester is health with lee]
third- western civilization, conway
fourth- geometry, idk who the teacher is, it was a misprint...
fifth- physical science honors, olson
sixth- concert band, my dad lmao
seventh- accelerated english 9-10 honors, coats
eighth- advisory, bouska

so i guess that's all there is for that.
band camp is really hard tbh.
for three hours a day, all week.
its so fucking sweaty like you couldn't believe in that room
and im sitting by all these older guys who are totally nice and funny and everything
they're kinda intimidating, but its okay because im kinda used to it.
and i think ill have permanent scars on the insides of my lips
from my braces. its a lot of pain. =/

the june spirit

so this is the list of shows i want to see this fall.
a couple of them are possible.
there's some others [like nevershoutnever and does it offend you, yeah? and a few in deep south illinois] that i didn't add because they're too far away/out of my grasp as a fifteen year old kid with dumb parents and zero friends of age.

all time low [with mayday parade, the maine and every avenue]
november 14 - the rave, milwaukee
november 15 and 16 - house of blues, chicago

cobra starship [with forever the sickest kids, hit the lights and sing it loud omg if i miss this tour ill die]
october 15 - house of blues, chicago
october 17 - the rave, milwaukee

the academy is [with we the kings, carolina liar and hey monday]
november 1 - the eagles club, milwaukee
november 6 - house of blues, chicago

panic at the disco [with dashboard confessional, plain white t's and the cab.]
october 22 - allstate arena, rosemont il [i want to see this so bad, but there's a football game that day. if i have a really cool friend who will take me and if i can talk my way out of the game, ill be there fo sho.]

motion city soundtrack
september 17 - the canopy club, urbana il

farewell
september 18 - mojoes coffeehouse, tinley park il

thats it, i guess. i thought there was more. the one that i'll most likely be able to go to is the academy is on november 1. and the two in september are the least likely. =/ ive heard that the rave is 18+ only and in a bad neighborhood, lots of drugs etc., but i'll check it out.
keeping my fingers crossed. =]

oh shit

I am so shaken right now. I get on the computer to find some good guitar tabs, and get this instead.
http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/news/general_music_news/chiodos_frontman_attempts_suicide.html

Craig Owens, frontman of Chiodos and Cinematic Sunrise, attempted suicide by overdosing. Just FOUR days after I saw him at Warped. I can't believe it. I just... I don't know. I thought he looked so happy then. I used to comment on how depressed he would act, and joke about it. But after Warped, I told my sister, "I'm glad Craig seems to be happier these days." But now, seeing how serious it still was, even then... I'm just... really upset. I <3 you Craig. please get better.

yeah, great. and then his face shows up on the cover of AP less than a week later. aaah. good job. -sad-

[editt; so today (monday) i was checking up on purevolume and saw that motion city soundtrack was co headlining with chiodos a tour soon. not only was i like 'holy shit these are two of my most favorite bands i must be there' (then found out that its not near me but there's a date earlier that's just mcs), i also thought 'haha, interesting choice. sounds like fun' but the most important thought was, 'will craig be okay for that?!?! is this before what just happened!?!' so idk. that's just an update.]

ap tour

so thursday was the show that i went to w/ ashley. it was pretty kickass. this girl i know told me that some of her friends were going to be there, and somehow we managed to get in line right behind them. that was pretty cool. except it was raining when we were in line, and our um-ber-ella was too small. some cute guy tried to sell us cd's and some other guy gave all the kids in line free rockstar. me and ashley met this super cute kid justin who we hung out with all night 'cause we couldn't make any other friends [haha]. it was cool that he hung out w/us because he was probably 5+ years older. he's a musician and probably the coolest person i've ever met. i'm mad at myself for not getting a forever the sickest kids shirt because i liked their set the best. [album comes out tuesday!!] but i got a matches shirt because they're my favorite!! we almost got killed during their set, i saw a couple of girls faint and the guy who was in front of me was super gross so we hightailed it out of there when they were done. after that, ashley, justin and i just danced in the outer circle & stuff. i bought all time low's ep and some earplugs for my dad [lmao] and after the show justin played us some tunes on his guitar. =] oh yeah and the lineup was forever the sickest kids, the matches, the rocket summer, and all time low. pretty sweet.

[editt; also, i pretended to be in the conversation these kids were having with justin from the matches and that guy from ftsk. lmao i am so lame.]
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today i was confirmed at my church. i don't like complaining, but it sucked major ass. i didn't like getting my picture taken 23094872309586 times, i didn't like making promises to god that i know i wont even try to keep, i didn't like the dress i wore, and i did not like my aunt. i never have. the only good thing about it was that my mom bought me a $50 itunes card because lmao i have no money. i bought:
-does it offend you, yeah?'s you have no idea what you're getting into
-saosin's saosin [finally!!!]
-gym class heroes' the papercut chronicles
-mgmt's oracular spectacular
-punk goes crunk compilation =]
-preordered ftsk's underdog alma mater

so, yeah. i'm pretty excited about that.