i think i might change my name to tomorrow

 well its spring break again.

except its not very springy outside, it snowed today.

i dont have much to do, other than homework, play practice, and soccer practice this week.

except we're going down to chicago for the aquarium and epic burger on thursday :D thatll be a good time

and i was supposed to chill with kegan today, but i dont know exactly how things are going to play out with me and him.

so my mom and i went grocery shopping and played wii fit for hours. :] it was good.

i am in love with a thing called soccer. it is so nice to be active, i never wanna stop playing ever. even though my team isn't that good, it doesn't matter because we have so much fun. i used to be a real lazy kid, but now im starting to think that sports are kind of the best :]

i was going to get into some real thoughtful stuff about relationships and all that in this post, but i don't feel like it i guess. im tired of all that. i think its time for me to just do what feels right. so ill leave it that im mostly happy, but ive got some choices to make. we'll see. im hopeful for whats to come next year.

which reminds me. i really want summer. like now. i want to be free to do what i want, and not be a freshman anymore :P im looking forward to this summer a whole lot. were going to italy and its pretty much going to make my life. although i have no idea how im going to survive for two weeks without my phone haha. itll be worth it. 

i just want it to be any day but today. any day but tomorrow. any week but this week. :/ im just bored with the way things are right now and im longing for change. hopefully it will find me soon.

im tired and cold so i think ill be heading off to bed, good night blogger

safely from the city

so at band camp last year they somehow got this cool little band called locksley to play for us marching band nerds. i really enjoyed the show and was super upset because that was the one day i forgot to bring my camera. i think i filled up a whole notebook page with 'fuck fuck fuck i forgot my camera'. they're a nice group of guys.
apparently locksley is mtv's band of the week or w/e. i've seen one of their videos on mtvu like a million times this week and it makes me pretty happy to see them go from playing at university of madison summer music clinic to mtv. even if they're not top sellers or anything, they've come so far in little over a year. =]

uh, i thought i had more to say in this entry, i really did. but i forgot, i guess. i could write about how fun the football game on saturday was, or how much i did not enjoy the vma's, but i don't have the energy for it right now.

we're gonna have us a champagne jam

so i think im going to lose my mind about this fucking cobra/ftsk and friends tour. my dad's being all ~noncomittal about it, and idk if ashley's mom can take us and i have zero friends who can drive to milwaukee [and who my parents would trust. ahaha i bet aaron eicher would take me if i asked nicely!] ugh, i wish justin lived close enough to take us. because one, he would totally take us, and two, his town only has a walmart and i think he really needs to get out of there if he wants to go anywhere with his music. im just really hoping that all this holdup won't be for much longer and i'll get tickets because im so scared that it'll sell out! aah!!
allie asked me if i wanted to go see metro station with her in november, and omg i would love that so much, but idk, i still really want to see all time low and the academy is and my parents are really against concerts, especially in milwaukee and chicago of course. plus idk if allie still smokes and i hope she knows im not into that kind of thing.

i shouldn't be freaking out about this kind of thing, but i don't want to miss out on all the fun while im still a kid. i mean, ive heard so much from older people that 'high school was the best time of my life', 'man i wish i was that young again, i got into so much shit' etc, and i want to take advantage of this as much as i can. i know how fast the time passes, and if i can't slow it down i guess i've got to just buckle up for the ride, you know?

which brings me to the topic of how much i am enjoying school, now that it's started again. i'm already lacking on sleep, and no matter how much breakfast i eat, im deathly hungry by second hour and its incredibly hard to find a place to sit at lunch and im a little scared about all the work this is going to be, and im kinda caught in this crazy predicament of who i want to pursue to date [omg this is an interesting story that i don't plan on telling, sorry, maybe some other time] but i've managed to have so much fun already in the first three days of school that i cant even describe it. it's scary but really great.

also; chiodos makes me smile. so does sky eats airplane. a lot.

phantom always

i like people who like cats.

because i like cats too.

oh dang

justin san souci is no longer a member of the matches.
how will we ever live without him!?!

oh and one more thing.
travis mccoy needs to dump katy perry
and realize im the only katie worth dating. haha!

so

today i painted some sets with my mom and mrs. schrank, sorta. we primed some wood, not a big deal. it only took a few hours. but after we were done, we had this cool little discussion about my mom's life, about mrs. schrank's life, about children, about my life, about a lot of people's lives, about integrity, about relationships, about a lot of other things. it was pretty great. i've never liked this lady too much, and she interrupted my mom a lot, but its okay because she shared a lot of her life with us and i have more respect for her now. i realized that all people are inherently good, some are just troubled and dont know how to show it. i also learned a few things about myself that weren't really important but nice to know.

idk, i love discussing things. its a pretty natural thing for me to tell people what i think. even if i don't really know what im trying to say, even if i want to hold it from them, even if they wont like it or they'll disrespect me or think im dumb for it, i want everyone to understand how i feel. i'll find a way to let them know. however, i guess i dont really have a lot of strong opinions on big issues. i have a lot of thoughts, but never any final descisions.
and thats just how it is.

=]

tomorrow is my toe surgery.
i dont wanna say im scared because its not a real surgery or anything.
its fucking toenail surgery. who cares.
plus ive pretty much done it before.
but im still pretty freaked out about it.
yeah, you could say im scared.
because surgery is fucking terrifying.

wish me luck, =/


[editt; happy bday ray toro! i actually remembered]