'a lot of wow factor'

so, i've kinda been holding this in, and i just don't think i can anymore.

today i made a mistake.

i wore flip flops on todays field trip,

when my mom specifically told me not to.

i guess i told her i wouldn't, and i just changed my mind at the last second and threw some on before walking out the door. my dad didn't know or didn't care or something, so he mentioned something about it in casual conversation and my mom was, needless to say, unhappy. she made me put all my flip flops away for the winter. 

im totally fucked.

like, i hate wearing shoes. i really love shoes, but just not wearing them. i have a really hard time keeping them on all day and tbh all the ones i have just make my feet look big because they are. all my shoes are really, like idk, i want to wear them (some of them) but they just don't look good. 

so this has kinda made me think about who i am. idk if i know who i am atm. i think im where i want to be, but there's a lot of other things i want and a lot of things i don't really know about, like if im doing them for me or if im doing them for everyone else. 

i guess this isn't really that big of a deal, it just feels like it is, you know? im just really confused right now. >.<

but im stuck here wasting time

so i went to cherryvale mall today. 

i stepped into hot topic and they had all these superhero shirts, and im like, oh okay w/e way to be behind the times hot topic. superhero day was today. thanks a whole lot. but they had this shirt that was like a tuxedo shirt kinda, but instead of a tuxedo front, it had the front of the joker's jacket. it was purple and had like a flower in the pocket and a green ruffly looking shirt underneath and it was only fifteen dollars. i didn't get it, but i plan on going back for it like next week.

um, ive been listening to the rocket summer like all night long and i had forgotten how much i really love bryce. but now i remember and i don't plan on forgetting again. =]

an insult to the dead

so i saw that adorable movie everyone's been talking about, nick and norah's infinite playlist, on saturday. i thought it was pretty great, and i would love to read the book. the music was as great as i expected it to be. =]

i guess thats all i really have to say. homecoming is on saturday. i've kind of got a whole lot of shit going on in the week before hand. tomorrow and thursday there's band practice after school, one of those days i have to get a uniform. tomorrow and wednesday before school there's also drumline practice which i have to go to, even though im not a percussionist. also, thursday is the replacement of burning of the v, some fireworks and a little pep rally thing, and parker playhouse. friday morning is student leadership council before school [im so sure i got on the council, they announce it tomorrow and im excitedd], a pep rally at the end of the day that i have to play with the band for, and the homecoming football game after school. saturday is my mom's fashion show [haha! im so happy for her], and then taylor's coming over to get ready for the dance, which is later that night. its a busy fucking week, but i don't have a problem with it. it's not like i've got anything else to do.

but speaking of band, im really really tired of playing the trumpet. i would switch to percussion and play the bells and other auxiliary things like the woodblock and triangle and cowbell and work my way up to the quads and stuff. i honestly would, i want to so badly. but the director [my dad] really needs trumpets who can play well, and there are like ten thousand percussionists already, so there's no way it's going to happen. maybe in a couple years. =/

oh and one more thing. in our science book today for some reason it said george washington's teeth were not made out of wood like everyone thought, but actually made of hippopotamus bone. so everyone was all ugh gross and jared beighley didn't understand so i drew him a picture of a hippopotamus skeleton and sam fischer was all, 'thats what kyle and jareds babies are going to look like' because he's a dummy, and wrote 'kyle + jared = hippos' on it. i'd love to upload it and show it to you guys because it's kind of crazy adorable, but i left it at school. =[

no trucks beyond atwood avenue

my teeth dont really feel much better today.
but thats okay because im used to it now.

today we went shopping,
even though i didn't get up until like one o'clock, haha.
i didn't really get anything exciting other than hit the lights' album.
i like it a lot. =]

but im pretty upset about my tai shirt.
i bought a small, slim fit even, and it is absolutely huge.
usually i buy shirts too big for me and get dissapointed about it,
but this one is actually the right size, it must be cut wrong or something.
idk, i haven't washed it yet, maybe it will shrink.
my mom can always take it in, she's a good sewer.
while she's at it, i'll probably have her do my ftsk shirt and backseat goodbye shirt as well.

i had a dream last night about school.
it wasn't in the school that im actually going to, and i got horribly lost.
but the boys from panic at the disco came to my rescue, haha.
no one knew who they were, and they thought they were all big nerds
so i was the only kid sitting by them at lunch.
it was a little awkward, but not bad. =]

id really like some jones soda.
i think we're about to go to the grocery store so
maybe i'll pick some up.

[editt; haha! i ended up getting jones soda in cans because i need something to drink at school next week. plus its such a good deal. =] also i think the title for this entry would make a good song title, or maybe beyond atwood or beyond atwood avenue would be a good name for a band. just a thought]