its about a week, week and a half until valentines day. my faaaavorite holiday.this valentines day will not be the best. but it will not be the worst.
ive been hurt, but ive been hurt worse.
ive been loved, but ive never been loved more.
i dont want to get into it i guess. i wish i didn't talk about things like this anymore, ahaha. it seems like my whole journal is full of my self pity about how dumb i am and how every relationship i have seems to consume my whole life. and i bet its really annoying. i am so tired of it. so im not going to talk about it anymore, this is my last love post for a while, i promise =]
so here's the real deal.
this week has been not too bad so far.
monday was good,
tuesday was better,
wednesday couldve been worse,
today gave me clarity.
so it evens out to a good week?
ive got plans saturday, soccer sunday.
i really really love soccer.
its so much fun, i cant wait for the regular season to start.
its nice to be doing a sport, actually working at something is really nice and rewarding, it makes me feel really good =]
plus it'll be nice to letter. thats one of my big goals, to letter in like absolutely everything. haha. i guess thats kind of a shallow goal, to work hard just for some felt patches and medals and pins to put on a fancy jacket just to show everyone how much better than them you are. but theres something about it i want sooo bad. im not sure what it is. those jackets look awfully warm haha =]
i just like how easy it is to get involved in things in high school. like, sometimes high school sucks major asssss. really it is sometimes counterproductive. but sometimes its really nice. its just enough freedom for me to make my own decisions and have fun, but its also just enough structure that i dont have to do much thinking haha. so, i like it. im having fun. life is good.
