things are going according to plan

i deleted that post that said 'angst angst angst' because i didn't like two really short posts next to each other like that. plus its not like i was going to explain what it was about or anything.

i actually wrote a list of what i wanted this entry to be about.
the first thing on that list was 'nightmare'
aka the fucking nightmare before christmas dvd. aah i am so exited about itt. i always manage to miss it on cartoon network, and idk if its ever been released before but i have it now and thats all that matters. :D haha they had this super special boxed one that had this dress up jack in it and it came with a couple outfits and all this extra stuff and i was like, lmao i bet pete wentz has that.

the second thing on the list was 'twloha'
because i finally got a to write love on her arms shirt. i'd buy a million if i could, tbh. especially the 'pick up the phone' one. because i believe in that a whole lot. i ended up getting this one and im happy about it. its on backorder though, so it'll be like a month before i get it. but idrc because im showing support either way =]

the third thing on the list was 'old post (blogger)' because of whats up there, but the fourt thing was 'teeth etc'
i got rubberbands on my braces today, again. even though im in a bunch of pain and i cant open my mouth far enough to sing along with all my favorite songs that i love to do so fucking much, its okay because in like a week i'll get used to them and ill remember how much i really really love them. idk why, i guess im retarded but i do.

then we went to wisconsin dells and i wrote something on my hand to remember to add to the list of things to post when i got home. that was 'writing stories is hard for me, as are many other things.'
i guess i wrote this because i really really like writing. like, i like to write as much as i like jon walker. probably more. its just hard for me to write coherent things. ive got like three or four story beginnings, one ending [which is actually pretty great because i finished it and its cute] and a lot of character planning, plot planning, lyrics/half poems etc. floating around in a few different notebooks. none of these things are longer than three pages. =/ because its hard for me to finish my thoughts, i guess. my thoughts go to fast for my hands to write, and i can never seem to find the perfect place or time to write because inspiration strikes at the worst possible moments and ugh it just doesn't work! im thinking i might get a laptop so i can easily and quickly write whenever and wherever i want when the inspiration strikes. maybe i can get my dad to lend me sibelious and buy me a synth and a keytar so i can make music too, because you know, im ~good at that kind of thing. and maybe i can be an astronaut. there's a lot of things i want, but just wanting isnt going to get me anything, thats nothing new.
i dont know. a surprising amount of things are really hard for me. id list them, but this entry is already long enough. =]